Warning: This is an extremely long post about my true identity and may cause extreme boredom or excessive drowsiness. Do not read this while driving or operating machinery of any kind.
Before diving into the details of my true identity I need to set something straight.
I started this blog not knowing the level of anonymity I wished to maintain. I figured this was something I could decide as I progressed.
In the beginning I didn’t show my face.
As a few months passed I outgrew this with ease but I still never revealed my real name.
I hoped that by using my middle name Alex, I could maintain one last level of privacy.
This blog of mine dives into my own personal psyche and issues even deeper than I knew existed before I started it.
For these reasons I initially did not want the people in my life to know who I was until it was already somewhat of a success.
Three things cannot be long hidden: the sun, the moon, and the truth – Buddha
For lack of better words, I figured it may be embarrassing or force me to answer questions I wasn’t sure I was ready for.
By reaching out to those around me and opening up to my close friends, I realize how relevant these problems are.
I went through some dark times, I grew from them, and now I’m here to talk about them in hopes I can help others experiencing the same difficulties.
Not so embarrassing when you look at it like that!
I don’t wish for anyone suffering from anxiety or depression to feel like they should be embarrassed or stay in the shadows so today I lead by example.
My name is Regan Jacklin and here is everything one could ever wish to know about me!
Note: This is not a list of my history with mental health issues (which you can find here), but more an in depth look at who I am as a person.
Where Am I From?
I was born and raised in beautiful Vancouver, British Colombia and there is nowhere I would rather choose to live.
You may know or quickly learn I am a huge nature lover.
Living amongst the mountains, rainforests, lakes, and ocean provides me with so many opportunities to get outdoors.
Hiking, snowboarding, kayking…you name it, you can do it here!
What Do I Do For A Living?
Admittedly, I feel as though I am not where I imagined I would be as a kid.
I always felt destiny would one day summon me to my own personal greatness and I still do, however, I feel like depression and anxiety held me back.
A few of my prime years were wasted due to lack of motivation, absent zest for life, and a fear of the unknown.
Eventually I came to the conclusion I couldn’t waste time anymore and made the rash decision to go to school to become a welder.
I spent roughly two years in the trade before it brought me to my knees.
The hours were horrendous, the job itself was rather dangerous, and I found absolutely no purpose in it.
As someone who already suffered from adrenal fatigue, working the ridiculous hours and being stressed from morning to night had me in a living hell.
I woke up everyday miserable and exhausted.
Unfortunately the paycheques were bigger than I had ever known and I was bound to the trade by money.
This was a massive life lesson in its own right.
I had more income than ever before and yet my quality of life was still lower than I ever knew possible.
Eventually I made the decision to go back to school to become a Registered Massage Therapist.
I feel I will serve a greater purpose on this career path. With the injuries I have personally experienced, I have a genuine interest in helping people with their own injuries and pain.
I am currently sitting on the wait list to start the program. In the meantime I am serving at the restaurant I worked at before I was a welder.
Even though my paycheques are half the size, I am happy again. I feel rested and I enjoy my work.
Everyday I get to work with friends which I have found out is extremely important to my well-being.
While I currently do not profit from this blog, I put in so many hours into it that almost I consider it a second job.
Thankfully I love it and realistically it is a hobby/obsession more than anything.
While being an RMT would be great, if I could make a career helping people online and skip the hefty tuition fees of becoming an RMT I would truly be living my dream.
What Am I Passionate About?
I remember when I was ten years old listening to my grandpa talk about the coral reef in Tahiti.
While most kids my age were playing with their G.I Joes I was dreaming of swimming in turquoise waters with exotic fish or trudging through the thick foliage of the jungle.
When I was 12 years old my grandpa took me to Costa Rica and fulfilled both of those dreams for me.
In a two week period we covered almost the entire country.
We went ziplining, horseback riding, jungle trekking, snorkeling and even boating down crocodile infested rivers.
I likely didn’t realize it for a few years but the damage was done and I was hooked.
When I graduated high school the itch to travel re-emerged and refused to go away until I took a trip.
A few years of saving and I was on a plane to backpack Thailand and Indonesia hoping to come back fulfilled.
Just as predicted, I had the time of my life…Only it was more than I ever could have imagined.
I made countless friends, saw places so stunning they almost stopped my heart, and had experiences so exotic you could never do them at home.
Upon returning home I was literally addicted.
Managing another trip was all I could think about for the next few years. I had an insatiable desire to see what the rest of the world had to offer.
In March of 2016 I took another two month trip to Mexico and Belize which was an absolute blast as well.
Where I go next is still a mystery. A mystery that excites me everyday.
In all honesty this is a recent discovery of mine.
Had you asked me about my passions six months ago, writing never would have come out of my mouth.
I’ve never been an artistic individual by any means of the word but my literary skills were always very good.
As a kid I consumed more books than today’s kids consume video games.
Through writing this blog, I am coming to the realization that I managed to soak up some of those words I was reading when I was younger.
As I work away my writing skills are developing rapidly. While some of you may disagree, I feel as though this is something I could be very good at with even so much as one years practice.
I have finally found my artistic outlet.
Through writing I can channel my emotions which has proven to be extremely therapeutic to me.
When I write, the outside world disappears. I hone in on the screen and two hours can whiz by in a flash.
There is no question it is a form of meditation for me.
With this intense focus and arguably above average literary skills, I can write my articles extremely efficiently and usually effortlessly.
Perhaps one day I can make a living writing whilst travelling!
There really is no single way to feel better about yourself than to put a smile on someone else’s face.
If there was one fundamental to being a good human, I believe helping others before yourself would take the premier position.
I personally have not had the blessing of accomplishing this on a large scale at this point in my life.
This passion is the driving force behind my blog.
From the beginning I said if I could change one persons life with what I have learned through my experiences, I will have served a purpose in my life.
Moving forward, I know it is only a matter of time before that number is a mere speck in my rear view.
This blog is my opportunity to change lives one at a time while simultaneously putting a purpose to my previous suffering.
Someone, somewhere, needs to hear what I have to say because I have gone through what they are going through.
How Old Am I?
This is something I considered excluding from my blog.
People are quick to discount information provided by someone who is younger than they are.
Admittedly, I have been guilty of this in the past myself.
The reason many of us do this is simple: If you don’t have experience, who are you to give advice?
I have grown to learn age is just a number and experience is what counts.
I am 24 years old yet I have over 10 years of experience dealing with the issues I am talking about.
In the past my struggles would last from the time I woke up until well beyond the time my eyes were closed to try to fall asleep.
They say an expert has spent 10,000 hours in their craft and if you do the math, 365 days x 10 years x 12 hours per day = 44000 hours.
While I am not expert, I HAVE put in my dues.
Should you choose to read my blog and perhaps even follow my advice you will likely realize I DO know about the things I talk about.
Very likely more than someone twice my age who has never dealt with mental health issues.
I have always had a keen desire to learn as much as my brain can absorb and, through trial and error, I have a decent formula for recovery.
I have never met a man so ignorant that I couldn’t learn something from him – Galileo Galilei
Sorry for the rant.
What Is My Relationship Status?
They say behind every great man is an even greater woman.
While I definitely try my best, I very likely fall short of “greatness”.
My lovely girlfriend on the other hand does not.
She is the most amazing woman I have ever met and she has shown me what unconditional love truly is.
She has been an absolute blessing in my life and there is no question in my mind I would not be who I am today without her.
While I battled my own demons she was by my side. When I was headed towards bad choices she was there to stop me.
While my life was going nowhere she was working harder than anyone I know her age.
Even with all her success and my lack thereof, she stood by my side and convinced me I could do something better with my life.
For her I am thankful.
What Are My Religious Views?
Since the beginning of 2016 I have been regularly attending a Christian church.
While I have always had a good heart, I never would have considered myself religious prior to 2016.
Through my life circumstances, I ended up forfeiting control and looking for help in places I couldn’t provide myself.
It is safe to say (in my own life), adopting a religious mindset has been the single greatest catalyst in recovering my mental health.
The lessons I have learned in church have progressed me further spiritually, emotionally, in my relationships and in my life path than anything else to date.
2016 had its definite lows, but without question it was the best year of my adult life.
I look forward to seeing what this path has to offer me in 2017 and beyond.
What Are My Ultimate Goals In Life?
I have no desire to drive fancy cars or live in an over-sized house.
What I want is simple and comes down to three key factors:
#1. I wish to be my own boss, have my freedom, and serve a purpose with the work I spend the rest of my life doing.
That may look like opening my own Massage Therapy clinic, writing for this blog, or a path life has not yet presented to me.
Where there is a will, there is a way.
I’ve spent enough years of my life living a life I don’t want. From now on, if there is something I want I will work everyday until I get it.
#2. Have A Healthy Happy Family
After almost seven years of dating, it is safe to assume I have my future wife picked out.
I would love to have a family with her and hopefully she will be the mother to my kids one day.
#3. Be Someone Of Interest
Let me rephrase that…
I want to be well rounded.
I have no desire to be famous or have my name acknowledged with prestige.
Rather, I wish to learn a lot in my days.
Before I die I want to see exotic countries, learn foreign languages, learn to dance, cook, and so on.
It is my desire to be the most interesting grandfather in the world.
I refuse to make it to even 30 years old without being able to say I have lived and I have learned.
What Are Some Of My Hobbies?
While I admittedly don’t watch sports beyond the highlights or playoffs, I love playing almost any sport there is.
I have an extreme competitive edge and nothing tops the thrill of an honest victory.
My competitiveness is something I never lost even when my mental health issues were at their worst.
In fact, on days I felt completely defeated, sports were one of the only things that could truly channel out my negative thinking patterns.
Sports were and always will be medicine to me.
I’m no self improvement guru but I stand my by one fundamental technique…
No matter my mood, the weather, or the impending apocalypse, I must do one thing everyday to get ahead of were I was in the morning.
If I do not go to bed ahead, I have lost and the day was a write off.
Since I have started adhering to this code, I have not skipped a day in five months.
By simply providing myself a minimum of one hour a day, I have progressed more in these five months than I did in all of 2015 without question.
On top of this, I feel so much better about myself and confident in my future!
Whether it is reading an educational book, working an overtime shift, going to the gym, or more realistically working on this blog…I am always busy.
I can’t remember the last time I was bored or had time to think of what I should get depressed about today.
While this could be considered a sport, I feel like it deserved its own spot.
Weightlifting has been a crutch of mine since highschool and at times the only one I had.
It is as much a part of my identity as is the color of my eyes!
Thank You For Getting To Know Me
I am glad to finally speak openly and reveal my true identity
I hope many of you will feel more comfortable reading through the blog knowing I am a real person.
Wishing you all the best – Regan